9.30.2007

When all is said and done.

There's nothing you can say, nothing you can do. There's nothing in between, you know the truth. Nothing left to face, theres nothing left to lose, nothing takes your place. When they say you're not that strong, you're not that weak, it's not your fault. And when you climb up to your hill, up to your place, I hope you're well. There's nothing left to prove, there's nothing I won't do, there's nothing like the pain I feel for you. Nothing left to hide, nothing left to feel, I am always here. What you want, what you lost, what you had, what is gone is over. What you got, what you love, what you need, what you have is real. It's not enough, it's not enough, I'm sorry it's not enough.

Standing there - I can't believe you came. It's 3 o'clock in the morning and it's pouring rain. There's something about the kind of love that you bring, can't put my finger on it - guess it must be all these things. The little things that you do, they make my heart beat for you. All these things, the little things mean so much. You remind me each time we touch of all the little things. Sometimes it seems you think of everything, you never cease to amaze. All the little things that you do keep me in love with you, baby.

If ever you wonder if you touched my soul, yes, you do. Since I met you, I'm not the same, you bring life to everything I do. Just the way you say hello, with one touch I can't let go. Never thought I'd fall in love with you. Because of you, my life has changed, thank you for the love and the joy you bring. Because of you, I feel no shame, I'll tell the world it's because of you. Sometimes I get lonely and all I gotta do is think of you. You've captured something inside of me, you make all of my dreams come true. It's not enough that you love me for me, you reached inside and touched me eternally. The magic in your eyes, true love, I can't deny. When you hold me, I just lose control. I want you to know that I'm never letting go. You mean so much to me, I want the world to see it's because of you.

If you're not the one then why does my soul feel glad today? If you're not the one then why does my hand fit yours this way? If you are not mine then why does your heart return my call? If you are not mine would I have the strength to stand at all? I never know what the future brings, but I know you are here with me now. We'll make it through and I hope you are the one I share my life with. I don't wanna run away but I can't take it, I don't understand. If I'm not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am? Is there any way that I can stay in your arms? If I don't need you then why am I crying on my bed? If I don't need you then why does your name resound in my head? If you're not for me then why does this distance maim my life? If you're not for me then why do I dream of you as my wife? I don't know why you're so far away but I know that this much is true. We'll make it through and I hope you are the one I share my life with. And I wish that you could be the one I die with. And I'm praying you're the one I build my home with. I hope I love you all my life. 'Cause I miss you, body and soul so strong that it takes my breath away. And I breathe you into my heart and pray for the strength to stand today. 'Cause I love you, whether it's wrong or right, and though I can't be with you tonight you know my heart is by your side.

9.01.2007

Brace yourself.

New beginnings are awaiting. Life is finally unravelling itself and I cannot sit still. Independence is upon me and I am grasping it tightly with both my hands, so tight my knuckles are turning white. And I am smiling. It is time to let go and move on. It is time that I become who I was truly made to be.